Beauty within Chaos

The title of my blog was  inspired by a very talented friend of mine who has a very sophisticated way of articulating her ideas. Follow and be made to wonder on the philosophies of life, I present Kalina Tomova : @MsKTCG

I write today though because over the last two months (It’s been that long *sigh*) I have been very busy. In the midst of rushing around, I have had moments to stop and re-evaluate my priorities.

Here are the conclusions that I have come to. I hope you can take something from this:

1. You get what you ask for.

I remember declaring out loud: ‘ I do not want to sit around doing nothing productive during the summer’. O, how God hears every word. So far I have been on placement whilst working…two jobs. Don’t ask me how I’ve done it, just give glory to God.
Be careful what you ask for ladies and gentlemen. I’m not saying I’m not grateful for the opportunities God has brought my way, of course not. I’m just saying that God has a funny way of giving you what you have asked for and making you realise that maybe that thing you wanted so bad wasn’t what you needed. I have realised during my busy time that I’m lacking some spiritual nourishment. I wanted to be busy. I am. So what’s my problem? Being busy has come at a price. Which leads nicely on to my next point.

2. God wants us to slow down sometimes

This basically comes down to the fight I have been fighting my whole life. TIME MANAGEMENT. Anyone who knows me personally, knows that Gina has problems with timing. It’s pretty serious. Now here’s the cheekiness God possesses. He gave me what I asked for, to open my eyes and realise that 1. I was rubbish trying to juggle all of these things at once, I needed His strength, 2. I lacked the discipline to be able to keep to time requirements and 3. The most important being, I left no time with Him.

3. You have to consistently run to your quiet place.

I left no time to sit down and have a conversation with my Father. I’m going to liken how I feel to a car that runs on petrol/diesel. Now my tank felt full (ish) before coming home for summer. Gradually, actually very slowly so I didn’t even realise, the tank started to leak. I didn’t maintain my time. It’s all about being regular with God.
So my car started to slow down and of course I felt it. As you spend more and more time with God you’ll be able to tell the difference between your tank full, half-full and kinda empty. It’s because being in consistent fellowship with God keeps you on a level where you are surrounded, all the time by His presence. God presence is significant, so when that ‘fades’ you just feel it (I’m trying to pick my language very carefully, God never leaves, we just put up barriers that block out the beauty).

4. God will knock any barriers down eventually…

By this I mean when we are too in our own heads and  trying to control life. We have those barriers up blocking us from hearing and feeling the great sound waves of the Holy Spirit. God can be tolerant, the intensity of those sound waves may increase a tad, shaking the barriers until we realise we are blocking something. Or God could just be like ‘ I’m going to knock all these barriers down’. Now, my barriers have been shaking. (If you haven’t noticed, I am totally an analogy person, I will be using weird and wonderful processes to explain things, so if you get drowned in jargon, I do apologise, I usually have a summary paragraph at the end xxx)
Now what to do when you’ve slowed down and you notice barriers shaking….

Back to basis for the next few weeks:

1. Try something new.
If you ever feel your heart is not in your usual routine with your Father, do something different. I might try and go for walks or just sit in pure silence. That’s a good calming environment after a busy day.
2. Set alarms.
Discipline! Back to being harder on myself – Life Goals I is a message I wrote a while back – recap timee ( https://blossominginto.wordpress.com/?s=life+goals )
3. Ask God to guide you back to Him.
Simple as that. Prayer is key

I would love to hear how you guys spend your own time with the Lord. Whether a praise or worship session or writing a letter, God allows us to be so creative and unique when we come to Him!
Share below, your sister’s running an a half tank over here, help needed 🙂 xxx

P.S – It’s ok to feel a bit ‘off’! We are not perfect and we can’t get it right the whole time. God teaches us lessons through every experience. Take a bird’s eye view and glance at the bigger picture. God sees your every effort and you will be rewarded!

Through it all, there is a positive. Find the beauty in the chaos x

 Come to Me, all you who labour and are heavy-laden and overburdened, and I will cause you to rest. Matthew 11: 28 (AMP)

Blossom Into,

Having aligned priorities,,,

Gina 🙂 x