I lost my uncle a few weeks ago; a pretty sombre note to start off with, I know.
When anyone passes away, there is an initial sadness, I understand that. However, I’m doing just fine. Amidst the tears that surround me, I smile. Why?
Death is only upsetting for those left behind. We are the ones who are left with the thoughts: ‘ we never got to see that person do this’ or ‘we would of loved for them to be here to see this…’. Of course, we are not at fault for having these thoughts, but allow me to share with you a different perspective God has given me lately on death.
Throughout my life, I feel like I have had a masterclass in death and funerals. Before I was 10, at least 5 of my close relatives had passed away. And every single time, I would cry my little eyes out.
This time though, I didn’t. My dad received a phone call around 8:00am on Wednesday 8th July. Just by the huge sigh he let out, I knew what had happened. At this point, I expected myself to cry, because that has always been default setting for me.
Yet, there was a feeling of stability that fell over me; I felt secure.
I immediately stepped into ‘mother mode’, making sure my dad was cared for, before leaving for work and carrying as normal – like nothing had happened.
Not one tear to this day.
I kept thinking ‘is there something wrong with me?’ I was genuinely confused. In my time of contemplation, I asked God if I was alright. Just then I grabbed my phone and began to text my cousin. It was then that I realised why I had not cried, why I smiled at work and no one suspected a thing and why there was this feeling of stability within me.
God had enlightened my heart to see a glimpse of His viewpoint. His kingdom is something we should not be upset about. God had ended my uncle’s suffering and had taken him to a place of pure peace, love and joy; with all the good stuff you can imagine.
He had prepared a place at His banquet, with my uncle in a prime spot. He had called him home.
The beauty of this story is that I will see him again; when we are all united with Our Maker and called to take our place in paradise.
Until then, I know God has got my family and I wrapped in His arms. We’re going to be just fine x
The answers to all my questions came in the 1st reading I read during the ceremony:
But the righteous, though they die early, will be at rest.
For old age is not honored for length of time, or measured by number of years; but understanding is gray hair for anyone, and a blameless life is ripe old age. There were some who pleased God and were loved by him, and while living among sinners were taken up. They were caught up so that evil might not change their understanding or guile deceive their souls. For the fascination of wickedness obscures what is good, and roving desire perverts the innocent mind. Being perfected in a short time, they fulfilled long years; for their souls were pleasing to the Lord, therefore he took them quickly from the midst of wickedness. Yet the people’s saw and did not understand, or take such a thing to heart, that God’s grace and mercy are with his elect, and that he watches over his holy ones.
I hope this can encourage anyone who has lost anyone recently or anyone coming to terms with the loss of a loved one x
Love you and miss you so Uncle Fifi,
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